Dance Moms: Bang Bang, Shoot Shoot

Despite my otherwise sour demeanor of the week, I can always depend on the moms to yell at for contrived bullshit.

Abby reverts back to Jabba the Lee for this episode as she demands that no one comes in late anymore and that no one leaves early. She recaps Texas (blah blah blah they did great things) and announces the next competition will be in their very own backyard: Hollywood Vibe, Pittsburgh. And then JTL utters some nonsense over how everyone will be watching them fall or something. The group number this week is called "Private Eyes" and the girls will have guns. Saiwha? Christi is terrified at the prospect of sweet little Chloe armed with a CZ 75. Or a Luger Pistol. Maybe even a M14 sniper rifle. So I'm a bit of a gun enthusiast. Shut up.

Pyramid time begins with Mackenzie back at the bottom. It was a nice ride, kid. Mack doesn't seem too bummed about it. Nia follows, as usual, with her costume being pretty and her doing pretty swell. Kendall's next due to Jill-Cher's costume meltdown. Jill-Cher refuses to believe that, yes, HER actions are affecting KENDALL'S place at the studio. And next is OMG IT'S MADDIE. We see clips of the UBER UNFORTUNATE FALL (now, I watched the full clip on Youtube. For starters, it happened at the end of the piece, it didn't look AS bad and she still finished the piece. Second, she landed on her hip/thigh area so, while it might pack a whollop, she had nothing to worry over than a bruise. So, yeah, she made a big deal over nothing). Melissa the Snatch believes Maddie shouldn't be on the bottom. Just like how I should be a blonde. JTL's note for Maddie is to NEVER CHANGE YOUR MIND MID-AIR. For the middle, Chloe is there for being good but not good enough and Brooke for forgetting the end of her routine. Uh, who cares? And, gasp! Paige is on top! For obvious reasons. Kelly pretty much as a celebration ready at home since that's all she ever does at her home.
Chloe and Maddie are getting solos, and they're joined by Paige for the UNDEFEATED TRIO THAT IS SACRED GROUND. If you guessed Jill-Cher's pissed, you are so right. Drink! "Goose for the gander," says Christi. The group dance briefing is, well, brief. Think of it as Charlie's Angels with an edge. And, since they didn't win last time at Hollywood Vibe, they've got to up the ante. The moms don't want the girls to use guns and, frankly, I agree. It's bad enough teens are getting pregnant and we glorify it, let's not enforce weaponry with minors. Somewhere, Drew Barrymore is screaming in agony. Anyway, Jill-Cher attacks Holly for having a job while Christi and the others point out that Kendall might be getting a small part, probably to shut her up in both the Bitching room and for all dance eternity. It works for a few seconds before Jill-Cher engages in another pissing match with everyone.

The next day, Jill-Cher has a new gift for Abby, who's thinking, "Dear sweet Jesus, what is she doing NOW?" She tells Jill-Cher that, yes, everyone is really going to hate you. What in God's name is she thinking? A BENCH? CLEARLY not her idea. Oh, and not only is it right by the entrance but it's emblazoned with "Love Jill and Kendall". Well, Holly has seen it all now. Oh good gravy... Christi thought Melissa was bad but Jill-Cher is CRAZY and that Melissa has some competition. Another pissing match erupts between the moms, and I'm just reminded of the scene from Juno where Leah tells her "How did you generate enough pee for three pregnancy tests?" I wonder how many pregnancy tests these women could use. Christi notes that she never would buy her way through life and Chloe doesn't need special treatment, she'll go the traditional route and WORK HARD. She calls Jill-Cher a conniving bitch while she calls Christi immature. It's a wonder why these women don't come to blows.

At the three day mark, Abby's still making changes to the group and everyone's nervous, until one of them quips "Is that her sexy look?" which made me throw up. Still, lots of points for Christi and Kelly. Nia and Kendall screw up a turn sequence so JTL makes them do push ups, and I think Nia is ready for the Marines. Jill-Cher rushes down to confront JTL about this but she basically shuts her up by saying no more nice mommy. I'm worried about Kendall/Daria now. The trio rehearses next, but Abby informs us that this piece was choreographed over two months ago and, even though they're spending every waking second dancing in god knows where, they should AT LEAST remember the number. Well, Paige gets yelled at immediately because JTL hoped that getting the top spot would give her self esteem. She screams that she's had it with Paige but Kelly rightfully says that JTL's a chicken-shit. She then goes down to confront the she-beast and try to calm Paige down, who's freaking out because she doesn't want to lose this spot once again. As Kelly and Christi calm her down, Kendall quietly observes all of this from the door. Yes, Kendall, THIS is how moms act, not through bribes but with love.
The drama continues when Paige confesses that she's having a meltdown because she doesn't want to lose this spot again. She also says that they're gonna get it when they screw up. Since Jabba the Lee is tired of yelling at Paige, she turns to her next target: Chloe. She begins crying as JTL screams at her, and JTL interviews that she's not trying to be politically correct, she's just angry. WTF? She doesn't understand what the emotions are all about. Uh, Braindead, they're KIDS. They don't have the emotional stamina of adults yet and they never will until they're about fourteen.  And I'm pretty sure screaming like a banshee certainly isn't going to make them better. Mattress Melissa believes this is just about the trio, meaning she's baked. In the dressing room, both Jabba and Christi pretty much recite the Mama Rose "I MADE YOU!" monologue, but, naturally, Jabba goes the negative route saying she "made" Chloe a dancer while Christi made Chloe as in a daughter. Again, the assumption about JTL placing value on none of the kids but Maddie is made, which is a little hard to believe considering she's at the bottom this week. Not much happens other than JTL calling Kelly white trash as the moms leave.

Man, was that some shitshow.

The next day, after a good night's rest, Christi's hoping things will be a bit better today. Today, it's a group rehearsal, and Kelly's worried. Maddie tells us she knows the difference between a real gun and a fake gun and that she would never touch a real gun (dear GOD let's hope not, ya idiot). As a prop, it's totally okay. Reminds me of the few shows I've done where a gunshot was necessary and we had a gun as a prop. It was a REAL gun with the barrel plugged so it could only shoot blanks and one of the big rules was that NO ONE but the professor (who owned the gun) and the actor/crewperson handling the gun were allowed to touch it. That prop scared the living shit out of me. Chloe's not too far behind Maddie in the "Innocence" arena when she confesses that, with the guns and JTL saying they have to "Blow the competition away", she thinks JTL means it literally and the girls will emulate Marciano's 12 sisters and shoot the entire audience. Or, at least, be disqualified for having guns to begin with. Holly's still concerned by the guns and, leading the Mom tribe, goes to confront JTL about it. JTL reminds them that she's done pieces with kids with guns before and they've won so those guns are staying. The episode's barely halfway done and I already want a CZ 75. Or a FN Minimi.

Solo rehearsals resume with Chloe doing a lyrical number called "Please". JTL thinks Chloe second guesses herself a lot (mostly because she doesn't want to be yelled at again. Ever think of that, Fatty Patty?) while Christi finds there is a lot of acting potential in this piece. Maddie's also doing a contemporary solo called "Every Little Step" which is described as mature, elegant and exciting and Melissa thinks it's wonderful and blah blah blah. No offense but Maddie's starting to be a snooze. JTL tells us she put Maddie on the bottom because she needs to work harder and she needs to step it up.
Trio time. The tables have turned and now Kendall's running the music. She doesn't look so bummed about it but Jill-Cher is livid. In the Observe-bitching Mezzanine, the moms bring up Jill-Cher's shoe throwing tantrum and Christi tells us if Chloe ever acted in such a manner (again, let's hope that NEVER HAPPENS), JTL would've killed her. Jill-Cher then deduces that she has to get Kendall out of there since she apparently isn't doing anything but she's worried about talking to the Woman in Black now. She goes in anyway to retrieve Kendall. It's here where we find out why Paige was running music the last time: Kendall's a swing. You know, in case any of the girls mysteriously break a leg or something, she can swing in as a replacement. I get it. Anyway, the two mature adults get into a pissing match about Kendall WHILE SHE'S IN THE ROOM. Christi notes that Jill-Cher's no longer using her 900 number when talking to JTL now. Oye...

It's time for the competition and, since it's in Pittsburgh, there's no bus ride but JTL believes everyone is out to get them. She's particularly worried for Chloe since she's in the intermediate level. With the typical berating going on, Christi's hoping the girls will be able to pull of their number.
Chloe dances first and her and her abs are phenomenal. She's a dancing dream and a wonderful actress. JTL's impressed with her emotional execution. Maddie's next and she recaps the whole Texas tragedy that really wasn't. She goes with her typical all style, no substance dancing and JTL's impressed as always. When it's all over, JTL has positive comments for Chloe for a change. Saiwha?! Maddie's hoping she'll move up the pyramid a little next week.
The UNDEFEATED TRIO OF SACRED GROUND competes next and Paige is nervous about them since it's the same judges from last time. It doesn't look pretty since Chloe's spacing is off, Paige's spacing is off and Maddie's timing is too fast. JTL is too shamed to look at it and buries her face in her hands.

Awards time! Chloe gets second overall and Maddie gets first overall. Yawn. The trio places second, and JTL reminds us that second place is first loser and all that crap. As another fight erupts between Kelly and JTL, Holly uses this thing called intelligence to intervene. JTL confessionalizes that she doesn't sugarcoat anything (probably because she devoured all the sugar). JTL's all OWN YOUR DAMN MISTAKEs and Chloe's unfortunate solo bomb from Lake Tahoe last season is brought up (I think) and Christi says JTL's a Negative Nelly. Elsewhere, Jill-Cher's chatting with some people from one of her old studios. Christi isn't surprised and notes that Jill-Cher's always looking for where the grass is greener. The other moms bring up studio hopping suspicions and bitch some more. Jill-Cher has had it, again, and storms out, again. Without throwing shoes this time.
It's time for the group number and JTL's flipping out about hair clips and using the gun props as a pointing mechanism and I'm immediately panic over the sight of JTL WITH A GUN. Holly comments that JTL's having waaaaaaaaaay too much fun with the guns. Then, at long last, the Goldmember Bond Girl number goes on. It's a pretty entertaining number but Maddie has no idea how to shoot a gun, let alone fake it. Holly thought the piece was fantastic and admits the guns weren't even all that bad. For the awards, the group number wins first place in the Jazz catagory... which is odd since the description the editors gave the description as a "Contemporary" number. Odd. Then it's time for the bigger Overall award. Chloe humorously notes, "We've got guns. What else could go wrong?!" They end up not winning. Whomp whomp.

In the dressing room, Holly owns up to the guns and eats some crow. Jill-Cher proceeds to suck up but the look on Abby's face reads, "You're shittin' me, right?" when she goes on about Kendall's spot on the team and how she never gets anything (you mean BESIDES EVERYTHING she's gotten from day one?!). JTL screams that she teaches employable dancers, not competition kids (okay, then why are we going to three thousand competitions?). More Jill-Cher whining but JTL silences her with the threat that she's gonna have some special planned for her.

Next time: Kendall's back on probation. The next dance is centered around weddings as the girls dress up as pocket wives. More Candy Assles as Cathy says that while JTL has 6 kids (did someone leave?), they have 306 kids, like it's that fantastic. But Holly leaves with Nia due to something shady. And if Holly's leaving, then SOMEONE done screwed up...

Dance Moms: Everything's Bitchier in Texas

Last time on Dance Moms, Brooke rejoined the team, Mama Leslie Rose blew a fuse and Jill-Cher embodies Jiggly Caliente and expresses her "honest opinions" a.k.a. never shuts up. I'm only writing this because Abby Lee Miller gained some humane senses and it's making it impossible to be angry at her. Plus, I've got a lot of shit to deal with on my own already.

TO THE PYRAMID! Abby's disappointed about how the group is doing... but righteously calls out Jill-Cher FOR WEARING SHOES ON A $68,000 DANCE FLOOR. NOW she starts calling the moms out on this stuff but whatevs. At the bottom is Poor ol' Kendall. Your dancing was superb, but your mother's a nutjob. Jill-Cher wastes no time proving this by yelling at Abby. Nia follows as she needs to work on her energy and excitement. Brooke's next and back, but is she REALLY? Brooke's feeling the pressure now. Paige rounds out the bottom as per usual but is she wearing Chloe's dancewear? Confused! In the middle row is Maddie, which is now becoming not a surprise. Chloe is next, because she needs to pick up the choreography just a teensy bit quicker... which means... yup, MACKENZIE IS ON TOP OF THE PYRAMID!!!! The kid deserved it! Melissa the Snatch cries! She is surprised by this (and so am I). Considering how the other girls are doing, Mackenzie has been winning in her category for the past few competitions. Definitely most improved.
There is no group routine this week (rats) but EVERYONE will be doing solos and I immediately worry about Paige, who continues to be that mysterious girl who can do the thing with the thing. As for the moms (to keep them busy. Sort of), this is the ONE TIME they get to make the costumes (rather than fix them up). Abby tells Christi "This is your time for the Tony!" since she's the complainer of the group. The criteria is that the costume must be original, it cannot be an old costume, recycled from another girl, or be "borrowed" by another studio (as in the Single Ladies/Electricity costume scandal. I guess). Abby's doing this because she's not going to have enough time working on several solos AND make costumes AND run the studio. Good thinking. Did I really just say that?

While the moms wonder how Abby's gonna do all of this, Miss Macks rehearses her solo. It's another acro solo titled "Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda" and I wish there was a sound bite of that. Holly the Magnificent is a bit worried about the costume making since she never has enough time to make costumes due to her job. Jill-Cher is scheming about using one of Kendall's former costumes since, technically, Abby hasn't seen any of the stuff Kendall's worn. But the moms just know Abby's no fool and she's gonna see right through it. They also go on about Jill-Cher's shoes-gate and the contract that one must sign in order to dance with the Dance Slaves. Jill-Cher's all "AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME THIS BEFORE NOW?!" but the moms are like "Uh, it's cause you're a crafty piece of shade." Basically, as Kelly puts it, sign the paper, Jabba the Lee owns your poor unfortunate soul for an entire year (Meanwhile, I wonder if Abby's ever been Ursula for Halloween. And why didn't I think about it until now).

It's been a while since we've heard from the Candy Apples. I thought Abby's girls should lay off the make up. But no, THESE GIRLS painted faces makes New York's paint job look stripped. I managed to tear my eyes away from the whorish makeup jobs to see Crazy Cathy's so-called "PPP" "Perfectly Positive Pyramid". Pollyanna would choke this bitch if she could. Everyone's in a straight line but who's the poor kid on top? Well, Cathy Hannigan pulls a kindergarden trick and will hold an open call to fill in that spot. Angelica Pickles called. She wants her 'tude back.

In PA, Maddie rehearses her Spanish Jazz number. Abby's not liking what she sees and reminds her that they only have 3 days to make it clean. Since it's a Spanish-esque number, it much look CLEAN, not LOOPY. Kendall's excited to have a solo this week! Jill-Cher thinks Kendall should be at the top (here's a thought: Quit wasting money on bribes and focus on helping your kid get better) because Jill-Cher's delusional. Holly rips Jill-Cher for her snide remarks targeting the other students, especially Nia. Then Christi brings up the fact that Jill-Cher never shuts up and Jill-Cher reminds us of whatever God given problem she was talking about. Then Jill-Cher tells Christi she's tired of yammering about her youngest daughter, Clara, who's only 2. Y'know, Clara may as well be the next Allison Holker. As usual, the fight goes nowhere.

Let's zoom back over to Crazy Cathy's Asshole audition, which appears to be at 2:45 AM (Random Note: That song pretty much explains my life right now. Moody). NONE of these kids look like dancers. Crazy Cathy needs to stock up on her meds because she tells us she doesn't NEED talent, but more strength (I'll bet). When, OUT OF THE ABYSS, Giant Peyton walks in. She's practically fresh-faced in this motley crowd. Leslie the Electrician has decided to drag her all the way out to Ohio to prove to Abby they can compete somewhere else. Peyton, since she's old enough to have an opinion, wants to please her mother BUT she's not entirely sure she wants to dance with the Candy Assles. You have redeemed yourself from your smart-ass mouth from a few weeks ago. The combo doesn't look too-too hard and Cathy finds this a win-win situation since she likes Peyton (mostly because she left the ALDC). So Peyton's called in for the good news. You interested in joining our troupe of failure? "I'd have to think about it." Are you a spy? "No!" Why the fuck not? "I'd miss my friends plus it's a really long drive." Just how nearby is Canton to Pittsburgh? Peyton's dismissed but not before Cathy comes in for a talk. She tells her and her mother that her time's been wasted. WHOA, that was kind of harsh. Even Leslie knows that. Loudly. She points out Cathy is totally fake, they yell, and the two leave. So maybe this wasn't the best idea, Leslie says. Oh well. Maybe I should just suck up to Abby once again. GOOD LUCK, HONEY.

Moving on! As Nia rehearses, the moms continue to make the costumes. While Christie and Kelly have tons of experience with this jazz, Holly and Melissa don't because Holly's a principal and Melissa is a mattress works the front desk at the ALDC most of the time. Chloe rehearses a lyrical ballet number, which is challenging since most of the liberties one would have in a regular lyrical number have been stripped. Or something like that. Paige has another acro rountine called "Make Some Noise" and she likes it. That's practically the basis of all her screentime on this show. What dance she's doing, the name of it and that she likes it. Can she get some character development?!

Abby goes to check in on the moms, but not before Holly shows us that all she has are Nia's old animal costumes. Not much happens other than Abby catching Jill-Cher in her own trap. She needs an original costume, not something she's worn simply because she was at another studio. Christie doesn't have anything to show her since it needs to be dyed. She does show her a bra she'll dye later but Jabba the Lee chastises her for putting her kid in a bra. Hey, look at what the OTHER kids are wearing. A bra is practically Amish coverage. Plus, JTL, you've had plenty of pieces where your girls wear wearing bras. Kelly shows her stuff and it gets the seal of approval. A few seconds later, Abby receives a phone call from Rich, a representative from the Dance Explosion competition they're going to. Well, THE COMPETITION'S BEEN CANCELLED because they found out they were coming of a lack of competitors. Well, that sucks! They're leaving in less than 24 hours and now Abby's scrambling to find a place for these kids to dance. While Melissa again recognizes she has TWO daughters, Kelly suggests the obvious and find another competition. Abby goes on a calling spree while the girls rehearse and the mothers sew until FINALLY, a competition! The team will now be going to the M.A. Dance Competition in Texas.

A flight later (does Abby berate the pilots on planes? "WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE AT ANGELS 10!"), the team arrives. There's just one caveat: The competition is on a gym floor, not a marley stage. That REALLY blows. The girls aren't too fazed by it so it probably means they've danced on gym floors before, but not too often. The only exception is Kendall. She's worried that she's going to slip on the floor. Some brief costume talk and they go to compete.

Brooke goes first in her airy dress. She's definitely improved from last time. Mackenzie is next and, as usual, she's a cutie. She confessionalizes that she's too used to competing on stages and not on gym floors so it's a little weird for her. She does well. In the dressing room, Jill-Cher pulls out Kendall's costume. It obviously wasn't made by her and Abby calls her out on that. They get into a pissing match over this stupid dress until Jill-Cher snaps. She wonders why no one's backing her up ('cause you're a crazy bitch!) so she throws a tantrum, throws shoes across the room and storms out of the room, threatening to leave. Christi couldn't really take her seriously since Jill-Cher decided to wear a cowboy hat today. I couldn't take her seriously because of her botox face.

Abby explains how simple this damn task was to us while Melissa goes to calm Jill-Cher down. She won't have any of this. Gia! goes to ask about Kendall and Jill-Cher, in true stage-mom bitch fashion, tells her she won't be dancing. Poor Kendall is in tears because she really wants to dance. Jill-Cher explains to her that, when she's older, she'll understand all of this. Yeah, she'll understand how much of a devil you are for dictating her life. Wench. In the meantime, Nia's in a heating pad because she's a little sore. Abby stresses the importance between being sore and being injured. But she's being a hypocrite because she forced Brooke to compete with a bad hip last season. Holly can sense something is very, very wrong with Nia and it has nothing to do with her pain. When Nia's finally called, she bolts down the hallway with Holly following suit. Do you think she was a track star back in the day? Nia then has a panic attack and Holly does her damndest to calm her down. I wish Holly was my mom. Nia scared she's going to slip on the floor and hurt herself. Nevertheless, she pulls it together long enough to go out to dance. She looks shaken but does a beautiful job. Holly is speechless that she's managing to pull it off so gracefully and cries when Nia finishes. Nia is glad she could dance after all. You go!

Kendall really wants to dance but her mom's being a total asshole about it. Abby finds them sitting behind her, livid that Jill-Cher won't let Kendall perform. Instead, she allows Kendall to go change into an all white ensemble of a crop top and hot pants. After an aerial in the halls, Kendall goes to compete. She does her best and she doesn't care about what the hell she's wearing. Jill-Cher, however, remains to be a cold bitch. Chloe and her abs are next and her costume is pretty stunning. I think Christi should take costume making up as a career. Her music is beautiful and her dance is stunning. Maddie is next in a Candy Apple's knock off spanish hooker costume. Complete with painted on sideburns that the Apples grew naturally. She does okay until she slips and lands on her hip pretty hard. All of this, from the fall, to the reactions, is done in slo-mo to make it seem dramatic. Melissa panics and practically flies from the bleachers to rush to Maddie. En route to the nurse's station, Maddie is worried about how Abby might flip out and if she'll ever dance again than her hip. Kid, you just landed on your hip. You'll be fine. It's not like a car accident. Abby comes by to find her icing her hip and assures her she isn't mad at her. She even quips "If you had a big butt, you wouldn't have gotten hurt!" which made me giggle. She even carries her back into the room. Kelly whines how if any other girl got injured, Jabba the Lee would just scold them. In this case, I'm on Team Abby since it's one of her dancers and it was a pretty bad fall so shut up Kelly.

After all that, it's finally Paige's turn and I wish they'd show her dancing more often. Well, not the moments where she forgets and bombs the whole thing which, thankfully, she doesn't do this time. She does a fantastic job and Abby's impressed. Hooray!
At the awards, Brooke places third, Chloe's second, but the winner is... PAIGE!!!! She's excited because Abby never really gives her a chance to shine. As my heart soars, Kelly expects this pyramid to change next week. We can only hope. Abby says now her name is one this competition knows. Oh boy. And moms? ALL your costumes won PERFECT SCORES. Go moms!!! I think Christi even said "Moms on the top of the pyramid". Again, giggles. Buuuuuuuut, before the episode ends, Abby makes sure to have Jill-Cher's ass handed to her, asking her about her position on this team: Will she stay or go? Hmm...

Next time: Jill-Cher screams some more as the Earth spins around the sun. The girls have guns and Abby stresses that she teaches employable dancers, NOT competition kids (HUH?!)

Dance Moms: Shut Up, You Suck Up

Tonight's episode takes a different route where Brooke maturely sets up a lunch/brunch/meeting with JTL ALL BY HERSELF. As it turns out, cheerleading wasn't everything Brooke thought it would be (or maybe her acceptance on the squad was all staged. Eh, whatever, she took a shot) and she'd like to return to the world of dance. JTL, for a change, is actually kind of civil about it. Even though she's ticked off about Brooke blowing her off to pursue an interest, she's torn about this slightly because, while a fantastic dancer, Brooke tore her heart. Nevertheless, showing humanity for the first time ever since her mother's hospital scare last season, Abby (for now, I'll use her name. Plus, it's getting tiresome writing Jabba the Lee, JTL, all those monikers.) assures Brooke that dance is her God-given gift. Brooke would like Abby to have her back and, if she does, she won't let her down. Aww...

Side note: I really don't like their accents on this show. By that, words like "all" end up sounding like "awl", kind of like a Long Islander but less obnoxious. And "older" sounds like "ohwlder". And it sounds kind of childish. That's just me though. Totally irrelevant. Back to the show.

Pyramid time begins with the news that Kendall is finally off probation! She can rob Walmarts again officially get that coveted jacket! Jill-Cher smiles like a total creep and Christi comments it's like looking at the Cheshire Cat (I AM MORE THAN READY TO MOVE IN). Leslie (the actual spelling. Damn you, editors) the Electrician isn't totally worried by this as she's concerned about Peyton's position on the pyramid. The next competition is another Starbound competition, this time on my home turf that is Long Island, NY. A chill went up my spine about hearing that news. Mackenzie, who's charm is growing by the second, isn't nervous about us New Yorkers wit our accents dat we have when we tawwlk and our daancuhs eithah (wow, that looks bad. BUT I HATE THE LAWN GUYLAND ACCENT).
Mackenzie is on the bottom once again. She did a solo at the last competition and did pretty well but she must do better this time around. Nia follows due to the role snub in the Trashy Schoolgirl dance. Paige is next, mostly because she didn't have a solo or was part of the trio last time so there's not much to judge her on. Kendall rounds out the bottom row because, even though she's off probation, her technique needs a LOT of work.
In the middle, Maddie is next and, if she isn't going to have an aneurysm by now, this should do it. Yeah, she's a great dancer and everything and she won and stuff but she has to be challenged and work a hell of a lot harder. Chloe is next. Abby wants her to give 'em what they want. But before we can hear any more, the moms show concern over if Peyton really is on the top. Kelly wonders that if that's the case then Abby is off her rocker. I mean, Peyton pretty much acted like an even worse teenager than Brooke ever would be, why should she get the top? But back to Chloe. She needs to really intimidate her competition. Uh, that sweet thing? Don't count on it.
The mystery is solved over the top... IT'S BROOKE!!!! I did both the victory cheer AND the dance of confusion. Peyton cries while Christi confessionalizes how proud she is of Brooke. Not only did Abby take her back after she went off to cheer, but she STILL managed to get top spot. You go, sister! (Her words) Brooke will be getting a solo but Jabba the Lee DEMANDS that she wins.
Peyton's given the boot. Aside from her attitude last time, she just doesn't fit this group since she's practically three times bigger than the other girls, including Brooke. Plus, your mom's a raging bitch. Mama Leslie Rose proves this by going batshit insane. She screams about loyalty like a crazy person on the subway. Kelly ropes herself into this and the class just drops and drops and drops. If you're going to fight, DON'T DO IT IN FRONT OF YOUR KIDS. Leslie grabs Peyton and storms out, claiming to find another studio that'll give her the attention she needs (yeah, a psych ward... oh wait, you mean Peyton). Bottom line: Some get in, some don't. That's life. Later, crazy lady.

TO THE DANCES. Gia! is choreographing the group number. It's called avalanche and it's like the fall of cheerleading. Or something like that, I don't know. In the Mom Box, the women are shrieking about Peyton. Literally. Mostly from Jill-Cher. Christi says that once Kendall and Jill were off probation, Jill-Cher's mouth and so-called "opinions" was off too. Uh-ohs. Kelly can tell Abby is going to give Brooke a hard time and put too much pressure on her, considering she hasn't danced in two weeks. As for Jill-Cher, she's gonna be a lot more honest now. Suddenly, whining about Maddie is back in with these moms and there's talk about the trio as well. Jill-Cher is bitching about how Kendall hasn't been given a special role in any of these dances yet. Oh this should end well. She also says Nia's a weak link in this group, irritating Holly greatly. The REAL Jill-Cher is out now, and it's not pretty.
Brooke's solo is a piece titled Starry Night. It's a space age themed piece and she'll be portraying an alien from another planet... "kind of like her mother". Zing! Abby stresses that Brooke better do well this week. Elsewhere, Mackenzie practices her solo in a party hat. It's called "The Party Starts Right Now" and it's another acro routine, which she likes. Abby comically shrieks about her sickled feet and confessionalizes that she wants her to dance like Maddie did when she was seven. Ugh... however, she is impressed by how much Macks has improved, especially since she learned her piece in 30 minutes. Girl gots skillz.

In the group rehearsal, we learn Paige actually has some relevance on this show as she gets a bit of a featured role in the number (she starts it off alone). Jill-Cher whines about Kendall not having a solo spot. WELL WAIT IN LINE, says Kelly, 'CAUSE PAIGE NEVER GETS A SPECIAL PART. Jill-Cher's dehumanization begins when she starts to go stage-mom over Kendall's so called "treatment". Melissa the Snatch, however, doesn't want anyone to bitch about the piece so she suggests they stop watching it. Melissa doesn't want Jill-Cher to be treated like a doormat, y'know kind of like how everyone thinks Melissa is (Honey, you're not just a door mat. You're also a royal mattress). Jill-Cher then proceeds to go down to bitch about it to Gia!, who handles it quite well with no screaming from either party... even when Abby confront Gia! over why Jill-Cher came down to talk with her. You go, Gia!! Christi believes that Jill-Cher probably considers Kendall to be the greatest dancer since Anna Pavlova, which rocketed her to my favorite mom as she's not only a smart-ass, but she's also smart. I still wish to be the live in maid.

Kelly the Party Gal holds YET ANOTHER PARTY FOR BROOKE this time celebrating her brief tenure as a Cheerleader and successfully rejoining the dance team, head intact. Jill-Cher enters and the energy dies. Christi attempts to explain to Jill-Cher how things work here and that using money isn't the smartest decision. Holly the Magnificent points out that Jill-Cher should NEVER bribe her way to the top. Jill-Cher then turns the knife back to Christi and asks if she would ever do that to boost her kid and Christi vehemently and honestly replies she would never do that. She would never be an ass kisser like Melissa the Snatch or Jill-Cher. Holly also notes that Melissa is Abby's "friend", and, as such, is the root of all the tension in the group. Melissa gets pissy and storms out of the house with her kids. Jill-Cher is aware that Melissa's kids are well liked by Abby which is why they get the private lessons (plausible). Christi thinks Jill-Cher is turning the group upside so she kicks her out of Kelly's house. And Jill-Cher promptly leaves.

The next day, Melissa and Jill-Cher go shopping to vent about the previous night. Melissa once again feels threatened because of her 9 year old DAUGHTER, which probably means she totally forgot Mackenzie exists again. Melissa likes Jill-Cher, even when Jill-Cher is being a backstabbing bitch and saying she won't be a mattress doormat like Melissa. And we all know what happened LAST TIME when Melissa bonded with the new grandmom. On that note, no Candy Assles this week too? Hallelu!

One day to the competition, Mackenzie practices her solo. She wishes she could be in the group piece this week but she loves her solo. And she gets applause from Abby! WHO CRIES AND IS SPEECHLESS! I have reason to believe that Mackenzie is a miracle worker. Abby has an epiphany about why she does the what she does: Cause she loves seeing her kids succeed. Or something like that. Following her is Brooke and, while happy she's back, Abby's a bit frustrated since Brooke's struggling a bit. Though Brooke now wants to  be a role model for the girls, she still wants to do her own thing. However, I do see that while Abby is berating her, Brooke isn't bursting into tears like she would before. Maybe cheerleading did something to her?

Some time later, Gia! and Abby are discussing a jazz piece when Jill-Cher bursts into the room. She has a surprise for them! Oh sweet Jesus, what is she gonna do now? As it turns out, Jill-Cher pulls out the big guns and has arranged massages for each of them, proving she is, in fact, an ambitious nightmare willing to do anything for her kid. Side Note: I never want to imagine JTL naked and all oiled up EVER AGAIN. Oh, she even says, "It was "Kendall's idea." Right, sucking up through massage really is the work of an innocent 8 year old. Abby states that Jill-Cher is congenial but, you know, buying her gifts and everything isn't going to make her kid get any better (it's called practice). The other moms, except for Melissa, are waiting in the dressing room, wondering where the hell IS everyone. Jill-Cher then enters and Christi takes a peek in the studio. She quickly takes her head out before she's spotted/her eyes can bleed as she feels horrible for the "masseuse". Kelly and Holly take a peek too and they are appalled. Holly is none too pleased, especially when Jill-Cher has the audacity to call her the "Absentee Mom". Now, Christi has seen some crazy dance moms in the past but Jill-Cher is on a WHOOOOOOOLE NEW LEVEL. Kelly believes Jill-Cher was on medications before entering this studio but now has seem to run out. Another plausible theory. It's a horrible fight, culminating in Christi getting all ghetto on Jill-Cher when she calls Chloe "only second" or something like that.

Time to go to Starbound but the bus trip isn't too interesting beyond Jabba the Lee, the Giant Black Cloud according to Christi, yelling at the bus driver, who uses sarcasm to deal with JTL. Hey, if you know the roads of America so masterfully, why don't YOU buy a bus and drive, moron?!

They arrive at the venue (a high school in East Islip. I am so sorry for anyone who lives there) in one piece. But they're still believing that they're National champions like it's a big deal. Jill-Cher reeeeeeeally gets on my nerves as she constantly brings up Kendall's lack of solo. Bitch, she's not gonna get any until you act humane. Abby isn't buying it and begs Kendall to tell her mom to shut up. Even if she did, it ain't gonna happen. Poor Kendall. Christi tells Jill-Cher to shut up and yet another fight erupts between the moms. An official comes in and unfortunately witnesses the carnage. All she wanted to do was fetch Brooke and Mack for their solos.  Poor unnamed official.

JTL compares Mack to Maddie, saying she better start dancing like her sister did when she was 7. Ugh, leave her alone. She's a cutie in her solo and does fantastically. Abby says that she made her feel excited watching her. Yay! Brooke is next and while she's under a lot of pressure, she's ready to give it her all. Abby wants her to prove herself. Her music is kind of weird and it's obvious this isn't her best dance.
For the solo awards, Macks gets 1st in junior petite! HOORAY! She felt great winning! Abby knows she's going to follow in Maddie's footsteps but, hopefully, we won't get to see her be all snarky and faux-humble. Brooke, on the other hand, wins 3rd in her division, causing worry from Kelly. She says that if Brooke's truly had enough of dance, then go replace her. Brooke is definitely worried about being taken off the team for her placing but, to everyone's surprise, Abby doesn't. In fact, she thinks she did very well. Phew!

It's time for the group number but, before they go on, Abby wants to look all purdy and asks Jill-Cher if she could borrow some lipstick. I'm pretty sure she was being sarcastic about it though. Nevertheless, the newly minted psycho Mom proceeds to do Abby's makeup. Christi rolls her eyes and ponders about the weird things happening as of late. Another pissing match erupts as Jill-Cher and Christi fight about the party and how Jill-Cher NEVER. SHUTS. UP. Luckily for the kids, Gia! takes them out into the hallway to practice. Abby finally takes this moment to chastise the moms for fighting in such an immature manner and leaves them in the room to duke it out.

Abby comments how other troupes have had SINCE AUGUST to prepare for this while they only had 4 days. Uh, what's not clicking? Maddie's happy Brooke's back, bee tee dubs. The group performs but Christi doesn't get this piece and, frankly, neither do I. Sure there are a few nice moments in there but it makes no sense. Abby thinks they could've had some more enthusiasm. Paige thinks they did very well and maybe they could win. At the awards, the top two pieces are revealed to score over 290 (whatevs) but "Avalanche" (the group number) only won 2nd place. Abby doesn't take it too hard since they're in New York and everything, which probably means that NY dancers are pretty damn swell, even me considering my form of "dance" usually consists of odd and bizarre contortion and spins and flailing limbs in order to tell some story. Anyway, Abby thinks the group probably could've used some more enthusiasm. Well, there's always next time.

While everyone celebrates in the green room, Abby reminds us that this is two weeks IN A ROW that the group (allegedly) didn't win anything. Basically, she reverts back to Jabba the Lee briefly to point out SECOND PLACE IS FIRST LOSER. Well, Jill-Cher proceeds to kiss Abby's ass. However, once the kids are gone, Abby takes this moment to confront all the moms as a teacher should. Holly notes that there is way too much tension in the group now when, in the past, only Melissa the Mattress contributed to that. Abby rips Jill-Cher a new one and confessionalizes that the woman unintentionally placed herself back on probation. Smoooooooth. Abby makes the threat that if she has to lose someone on this team, she will. Jill-Cher laments about how they "left" a good studio only to come here and be knocked down. Well, cry me a river, bitch, so we can build a bridge and GET OVER IT. Christi tries to tell her about how they're a cohesive group but Jill-Cher proceeds to talk to no one in particular except the furies in her head.

NEXT TIME: Abby tries to find a venue for the girls to perform due to a cancellation, Nia has a panic attack, Jill-Cher REALLY goes batshit insane, and a dancer injures herself... AND IT LOOKS LIKE MADDIE. OH NOES.

Dance Moms: Pot Kettle Black a.k.a "Whatever Happened to Baby Paige?"

A brand spanking new episode of Dance Moms opens up with the standard congratulations and berating from the Unsinkable Jabba Lee. Nia, for a change, doesn't get any negative criticism... well, aside from how JTL wants her to have JTL see her in a positive light for a change. Critique wise anyway. This week, they're off to compete in the Hollywood Vibe competition in St. Louis, Missouri. JTL points out that the judges will most likely be from New York and Los Angeles and that everyone is a working professional, even the people who guide the girls to the stage. Gee, I would hope so because I sure wouldn't let a pedophile or something like that work on one of these competitions.

It's off to the Pyramid but JTL skips over the first page on the bottom. Wanna bet it's Brooke's face slashed out? Instead, she moves on to Paige, who doesn't correct herself as much as the other girls. Nia is next for pretty much the same reason despite working hard. Following her is Kendall, who is still on probation to the ire of Jill-Cher, proving that she can change her voice but not her face. My heart soars as Mackenzie is in the exclusive middle row FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. She even knew she would go higher this week. You go, kiddo! Next is her sister Maddie, who might have a stroke after two consecutive weeks of not being on the top. This means that, yes, Chloe is on top! And on her own merit for a change! Well, she did win and everything but JTL doesn't SOUND too pleased with this. Now she has to earn the right to STAY up there. Christi, again, says how Melissa the Snatch is going to freak out but I'm pretty sure the editors just used the footage of her from last week saying the exact same thing. Morons. Still, I want ice cream!
For this competition, Chloe and Maddie will be doing solos once again. There will be a trio featured in tonight's episode consisting of Chloe, Maddie and Pai--- wait, KENDALL. Paige's existence is showcased as she mentions how she's been competing in this trio since she was around 4. She also believes that JTL is doing this just to get back at her and Kelly for Brooke's departure into Cheerleading land. Kelly isn't mad at Kendall (since she didn't do anything like plant herself in the trio through underhanded tactics. Plus, she's only 8), she's pissed at Jabba the Lee for the switch.
The group dance will be a contemporary piece about bullying, since Jabba the Lee is that delusional to find the irony of this piece. Maddie mentions that she's been bullied before on the bus (care to wonder WHY?) but she also witnesses bullying in her school (but does she try to stop it?). JTL brings up the increase in bullying in the news and blah blah blah hypocrisy flies out of this woman. She casts Miss Nia in the role of the bully, to the disdain of her mother, Holly the Magnificent. While Nia is somewhat happy about getting a featured part in the piece, Holly is less than thrilled, since she thinks it's another thinly veiled typecast.

But WAIT. What about that last page? Just who is under there since Brooke bounced? Well, after a flattering flashback of a certain mom named Lesley hollering at Jabba the Lee in JTL tones, it's revealed to be Peyton, her pretty daughter who... looks old enough to get into bars. Peyton is 14 years old and she's been dancing with the Fatty Lee Dance Slaves for 4 years. Peyton's been trying to get on this team for YEARS and barely anyone does make it. Jill-Cher fears she's going to knock Kendall out of the team. Well, don't wig out just yet, Peyton's on probation as well.

The rehearsal begins as the moms first bring up Paige-gate. Jill-Cher doesn't think it's that bad and that JTL is trying something new but OH NO, say the moms. THAT TRIO IS OF UNDEFEATED SACRED GROUND. While JTL brings up how bullying in the news inspired the piece, I notice something very strange is with her voice. I think they were all infected with some form of the flu. Either that, or she should take a cue to quit screaming all the time. Meanwhile, Holly is still perturbed by Nia's role as the bully and goes down to chat with JTL. She mentions that at her school (WHERE SHE WORKS, FATTY PATTY), there is a zero tolerance policy regarding bullying. Holly wishes there was such a policy at the studio. She deserves a high five for saying that. To shut her up, JTL takes the role from Nia and gives it to the (way better suiting) Peyton. Nia's a bit bummed about it but she seems to be unfazed. NEVER CHANGE, NIA. JTL freaks out over the switch, how Nia finally got the chance to get a featured role but her mom had to be all Madame Whineypants and blah blah blah. More rehearsal and the forever single Jabba the Lee calls Chloe cocky. EXCUSE ME? That sweet innocent girl?! What is this woman on?! Chloe starts to cry as JTL yells at her for trying to do her job. Chloe tells us that she sometimes has no idea what JTL is trying to choreograph so she made something that would fit until she's corrected/screamed at unnatural decibels. Thankfully, unlike some bitches I've danced with, she isn't doing it to be a snob and changing the piece entirely. Poor thing...

At Kelly's house, she's throwing a party to celebrate Brooke's successful (if slightly weak) cheerleading try-out. The girls (sans Giant Peyton) maul her with hugs. Poor Mackenzie misses Brooke on the team and Brooke misses them all as it seems like years since she last saw most of them. The girls ask her about her new life and poke some fun at it. When asked about if she misses dance, Brooke replies with an honest NOPE and that, instead of a competition in Boonville, she's going to a football game. Chloe gives her a hug and says she's like her sister and while Maddie misses Brooke as well, she's a little too focused on beating Chloe to move on to her precious spot. And the ambitious nightmare wonders why she's been bullied on the bus.

Back in the studio, the group rehearses the Bullying dance, where Peyton is described as a born leader, unlike Brooke. In the mezzanine, Jill-Cher and Lesley (whom I'll call Lesley the Electrician, because everyone hates electricians) discuss Peyton's inclusion in the group. Jill-Cher thinks she's way too tall while Lesley the Electrician thinks she's a better dancer than all of them. JTL comments that she's not entirely sure about how Jill-Cher will take this change since she hardly knows the mom... but is DOES know Lesley all too well and she will choke a bitch. Why do I get the feeling Lesley has a criminal record? Anyhow, the two new moms go at it regarding the whole OPEN AUDITION while Christi, unfortunately trapped in the middle (literally), sits and listen to the class levels degrade. On a brief note, it's very nice to not hear from the Candy Apples for a change. Still, FREE VIVI!!!!!

In the trio rehearsal, Baby Paige is stuck running the music and, since JTL is choreographing (read: moving around and shouting dance terms) alone, I'm guessing my beloved Gia! is nowhere to be found. Jabba the Lee admits that she didn't place Paige in this particular number because, while the kid's an amazing actress, she probably wouldn't fit in this particular number. Plus, she doesn't pick up fast enough, unlike Kendall. In Mom-Land, Lesley the Electrician wants to see JTL do any of those dance steps and the moms follow suit and laugh.

Some time later, Lesley the Electrician brings out the moms for lunch at a place called Delanie's Coffee, which means there's no drinking involved or inspiring a song in name of the place.

There's always next time...

Lesley wants to know the moms thoughts on Peyton. Christi confessionalizes that she's skeptical about Lesley as the woman has some underhanded motives with her. Lesley starts her dehumanization process by asking the moms why the hell do they continue to go to this studio (she does see the cameras, right?) and also says Brooke and Peyton should stay on the team over Kendall (uh, Peyton was never ON the team), since she's new and everything. Holly, the resident voice of reason, swings by to join them. She admits that Nia was pretty upset for losing the featured role thing but, for them, the issue lies a little deeper since Nia would be, once again, stereotyped. Then Lesley starts talking convoluted logic to a brick wall, causing Christi to groan in her confessional, as she continuously asks, "Why don't you go to another studio?!"

It's now one day to the competition and it's costume time. The girls are dressed up in school girl uniforms. Okay, as a person who attended Catholic schools for about 13 years, I can say from experience that not even the tackiest girl wore fishnets or sparkly short skirts. Christi again reminds us of the Electricity piece and calls the costumes "Prostitots: The Sequel". The difference being there's a lot more coverage this time around. Peyton, as the bully, is supposed to look the trashiest, something the moms object to. It was at this point when my sister entered the room to watch this unfold. I described Peyton's role and costume issue to her. It brought up some fond memories of hers involving bathrooms. Oh, and Maddie gets a kick me sign slammed on her back during the number. DISMISSED.

Competition time in St. Louis! Again, JTL reminds us that the people working this are professionals (let's hope so) like it's THAT impressive (it's not). She thinks Jill-Cher and Kendall have a better shot on this team since they've been on it a bit longer than the new mom/kid, who really have no idea what they're getting into. While Madame Lesley Rose gives Peyton a pep talk, Jill-Cher is a bit of a wreck who can't stand this stupid probation thing anymore. So, as encouragement, she bribes Kendall with twenty bucks. HUH?! Even Maddie thought that was really odd, since, if bribes were involved, they involve ice cream, not the same ruthlessly mercenary principles used by Daria Morgendorffer and her family. Great, now I expect Kendall will become like Daria when she grows up.


The trio is up first in pretty dresses. Chloe is waaaaaaaay off from the other girls (maybe that's because there's a microphone there [as Christi points out later]?) in the beginning but I think she covered it well. Kelly believes that wouldn't happen is Paige was part of the trio. It looked sloppy and my sister pointed out that it was obvious JTL choreographed it without assistance. Pretty astute of my sister. Then Jabba the Lee has to go be the shining example of her group number and tell Kendall she was almost considering ordering that uniform, making Jill-Cher sound really ANGRY (her face, however, remains the same). She berates Chloe as per usual and Christi points out the microphone in her confessional. It's obvious she's not going to SIT on it but did she have to be that far over? (shrugs).
Solos are next. Maddie becomes grating as she admits she's nervous but confident she'll beat Chloe. Aren't you two friends? It's the typical Maddie solo: All style but no substance. JTL should really remember to not leave her mouth hanging agape when watching solos. Seriously, someone could throw popcorn in there and she wouldn't notice. She wants Chloe to DANCE HER ASS OFF and bashes her while she rehearses. I did see Gia! so it wasn't too hard to watch. Chloe expresses her annoyance with JTL's mantra "Everyone's replaceable!" but is very worried that means HER. Chloe performs and does well but you can tell Fatty Lee really affected her. Christi doesn't understand why Chloe would beat herself up like that (YOU'VE SEEN WHY). Fatty Patty rips her solo to shreds. You know, if you want to get those favoritism rumors off your back, BERATE MADDIE YOU BITCH. Even Chloe sees that!


It's now time for the Trashy Schoolgirl dance. Everyone is freaking out and Lesley Rose and Jabba the Lee get into a pissing match (drink!) as Lesley plays "Dance Teacher". Peyton expresses that that's the reason why the moms are there. She also looks old enough to work in a strip joint. With Lesley's yammering in the green room, Peyton is sure to get that uniform too. JTL again emphasizes that it's her name they're representing but Christi is tired of hearing that. YES they're dancing for you but they're individual kids! Not your slaves! Then JTL furthers her fall from grace by telling Chloe that her mom will "destroy" her as Mama Bear Christi flips the fuck out on Jabba the Lee. Rightly so. The group finally performs and I thought the music was a little too soft for this kind of heavy topic. Plus, I sure remember doing aerials when I was in school (<- dripping with sarcasm). JTL flips out over the Kick Me sign placement and spends the entire time worrying over if it'll fall off. Hey, if it falls off, it falls off. Shit happens! Get over it! I thought the piece was so-so

Jill-Cher didn't love the piece as she was too distracted by Peyton's 8-foot height difference over the girls. Lesley is confident Peyton outshined Kendall and is going to get on the team. Luckily, Jabba the Lee is here to ruin that dream in a heartbeat. THEN PEYTON TALKS BACK AT HER. I think my heart stopped for a few seconds. Jabba the Lee is appalled. Peyton had NO RIGHT to criticize the group. JTL tells her and her mother that her respect for them has been shot down because of what they've said.


Awards time! Maddie wins junior solo (yawn). The trio didn't place first and Kelly's a bit relieved, knowing they would've won had Paige been in the group. The group doesn't win either and JTL starts speaking nonsense. What we DON'T see is the awards the rest of the team won that are listed on the studio's website (well, 'cept Peyton). JTL continues to bash Chloe and Christi finds it odd she doesn't do that with Maddie. She sarcastically remarks "CLEARLY there's no favoritism."


Due to Peyton's ego, JTL now isn't so sure about her spot on the team. Holly, because she has degrees and everything, tries to calmly explain these things to Lesley, who proceeds to go insane. It's so bad that JTL has to come in from talking with another choreographer to tell them to stop yelling. As Lesley continues her pissing match because, in her mind, she is God, JTL reminds her of what she screamed in her last confrontation. She wanted Peyton in a dance, she got it. Shut up now and see if she deserves it.


Next time: Brooke inquires Jabba the Lee about the possibility of returning to the team and typical fights ensue.

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Another post where I whine. Endure.

It's a new semester and I already don't want to go in anymore. It seems that whatever what I do just isn't enough. The only reasons I'm even going back to school is because there's no hope for me to get a job and because it seems like everyone expects me to do great things or something. Last semester was horrible as I didn't have a major to focus on, my mother passed on, everyone is pestering me to be happy constantly or about how I feel about my mother and I can't be honest anyway because it just gets me into trouble. All of it escalated when I was almost hit by two cars... and wanted them to hit me. But I'm too much of a people pleaser to let that happen, but no one seems to want to listen. I don't care anymore if I'm too morbid to share anything but I can barely take it anymore. I know I'm loved, I'm always reminded of that but that's not helping as much. I'm tired of putting up a front in order to avoid annoyance or hide about how worried I am or being so guarded I can't let anyone in. I'm sick of being pushed aside as the problematic one, the one person everyone is the most concerned about or being so non-existent even my name's forgotten.

I just can't do anything.